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Been feeling pretty shitty since yesterday. Maybe it was Harry Potter. I was looking quite forward to it. Once again, like all the previous movies, I was quite disappointed. It’s just not how I imagined it would be. I guess nothing beats the book. There were too many scenes cut out. Unsatisfied.

Well. Now the last blockbuster of the summer is gone. I’ve got no movie to look forward to anymore T_T But it was a good summer lah. It started with Spiderman 3, rolled on with Pirates 3 and Transformers before concluding with Harry Potty. It was a good wait. And well worth it.

Actually there’s a movie called Hot Fuzz that’s caught my eye. Some british parody of police films.

Yeah lor. Felt quite sian cos nothing to look forward to… And also cos I’ve been having some knee problems. Which means I can’t exercise when I want to. I get damn uncomfortable when I don’t exercise… Like too much energy causing a nuclear meltdown… Haha. I will feel damn sian and lazy. So contradictory.

There’s a match this sunday. Uncertain whether I will be fit enough. Ha. First time a weird knee hasn’t recovered in 3 days. And I still can’t bend my toe. Damn.

On the soccer front, I’ve been playing defensive midfielder for Chao Xing’s team. I enjoy all the physical battles. The pushing, shoving, shoulder charging. The thrashing talking. The mind games. The dirty little tricks. I love it when the opponent falls for my mind games. I’d say something to make them see red. Haha. That’s when they start losing it and their play gets progressively worse. Then they’d start fouling people. That’s the best part. Because there’s a ref so they don’t get away with it. And we have some pretty good dead ball guys in the team. I think it’s pretty cool to kena push to the ground then just brush yourself off and walk away when the other guy is still itching for a fight. My dad always comments when we watch soccer that only the pro players can take a foul and walk away like a professional. I find some truth in it. Only losers will react. I have reacted a lot of times in the past. It’s time for me to stop being a loser and concentrate on the football.

These are exciting times. I must say, I was pretty apprehensive about going to Arts Camp. I just wasn’t in the mood to socialise and stuff. But like all things you aren’t comfortable with, you’ve just got to throw yourself into the deep end and naturally you’ll learn. It took me about halfway through the camp for me to start thawing. Then I didn’t want it to end. But end it did. I was pretty upset about that. Regretted not thawing out earlier. Then again, you can’t have too much of a good thing either.

I made lots of new friends during arts camp. With lots of varied interests. But the cool thing is that for every person I talk to, there is a loose fragment inside me that can somehow connect with that person. This is in contrast to my upper sec class and jc class, where I often felt out of place. Disconnected. I must say the feeling rocks! Haha.

So right now I’m catching up on the few years of social life that I’ve been missing. The feeling is like EL again. I can feel myself warping back from the brooding anti-hero to someone oddly familiar. All the ice is melting away. Frozen in suspended animation for years, Megatron is back!

Anyway, I will be quitting my job on Sat. I think it was less than 1 month? Haha. But no matter. I’ve learnt all that I set out to learn when I took on the job. Yeah, even though the pay is miserly because of the restricted hours I got, that’s not important compared to the experience I’ve gained. I never would have imagined myself to be a salesman. But of course I took the job because I wanted to become more outgoing. And it worked. I got what I wanted.